Life changes in an instant - mine did for the positive and then the negative. Snap. Gone.
Dr. Diakos confirmed that my levels were dropping on Wednesday, July 18th. That was it. On Thursday I started to bleed more and on Friday evening I had the worst cramps/contractions of my life. I was doubled over on the couch, throwing up and cramping with Brian trying to rub my back to make it better. It passed Saturday morning, and I felt weak all day on Saturday but better. Sunday I felt like a human again - sore and sad - but could move around and ran errands with Brian.
The craziest thing is that even with all of that pain - emotional and physical - I would do it again just to be pregnant. I hope with all my heart and might that we get pregnant quickly and it sticks, and I can welcome that baby into my arms. That is all for now, but I am sure as I process what happened and my awareness for my emotions come back I will write more.
Ugh.
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